First things first, I want to start this post by giving a huuuuge birthday shoutout to my favourite person, biggest motivator, the best boyfriend ever, Daniel. Without him, this blog wouldn’t be a thing. I wouldn’t push myself to do 99% of the things that I do without him.
I wouldn’t love life nearly as much as I do without him.
Happy 24th Birthday, Daniel!
Thank you for being my rock, my cheerleader, my shoulder to cry on, the best boyfriend any girl could have ( sorry girls, he’s all mine ).
Thanks for accepting my obsession with chocolate even though you hate it, embracing your inner white girl and loving Starbucks as much as I do, taking 300 pictures in a day for me even when you’d rather be doing basically anything else and putting up with my nonstop talk about how I want to get healthy & buying me Mars bars to shut me up.
Here’s to a million more adventures, more traveling with you, tons of lazy days
making you watch The Bachelor with me and lots of walks on the beach. XO
So, I feel like I’ve been completely MIA lately… and I don’t like it.
Basically there’s two huge reasons why I haven’t been posting much and I’m determined to make some changes around here ( again ).
Here it goes: 1) I feel stuck.
After December, I decided that I wanted to do a total re-vamp of the blog and switch to doing strictly fashion posts all the time.
This was fun while the hype lasted but I’m so over it. I’m not done with fashion posts in general but I’m just done with only doing those type of posts. I think the photography and creativity that goes in to outfit planning and taking outfit pictures is SO fun but I miss writing.
I also hate being stuck doing only one thing. I’m really bad at picking one thing and sticking with it.
This is why I switched degree in university 3 times.
Went back to university after I swore I wouldn’t.
And decided again to change my mind and enrol in another program for 2 more years. But you’ve all heard this story a million times.
I really just can’t be stuck doing the same thing over and over every single day for my life. I need change. I need to be challenged. I need to be able to change things up and not be labeled or categorised in to doing one specific thing. It makes me feel claustrophobic.
Just call me Miley – I can’t be tamed. <<< probably not the best choice of word, but I feel like being stuck doing one thing for the rest of my life would be like being tamed. It would suck.
I don’t like categories. I can’t deal with being restricted. It makes me feel stuck and I don’t do well being “stuck”.
Basically, I just don’t do labels.
And you shouldn’t either.
I’m done doing things to ‘please’ others and caring about what other people think. I’m done doing things for likes, views, followers, whatever. I started this for me and it’s SO easily to be swayed and become focused on the numbers. But at the end of the day, whether one person reads this or 100 people do, it really doesn’t change much.
As long as I like the content I’m putting out, that’s all that matters.
And: 2) I’m so dang busy that putting thought in to one more thing exhausts me.
I don’t say this in a whiney “feel sorry for me because I’m so busy and I’m the only busy person in the world” but I say this as an honest reason. I have the worst relationship with time and I’ll be the first to admit that.
But when I get home from work, sometimes 2 or 3 different jobs in 1 day, I’ll admit that I’m beat and the last thing I want to do is blog. I’ve probably written one or two discussion posts or I’m working on a paper and to be honest, I just don’t want to do anything else.
And not because blogging feels like work or that it’s a burden. But because I’d rather sleep, watch tv, read… anything that doesn’t take much thought and effort. And because what I was doing didn’t inspire me and make me want to put forth any effort because I wasn’t enjoying it.
I am determined to change that and I am 100% re-inspired.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this and how I would write this and when I would write this for a while now…
I started The Intimate Brunette as a way to express myself and as a creative outlet and I feel like I haven’t been true to myself lately. I love writing, I love fashion, I love health and wellness.
I think I have a lot to offer so I’m done limiting myself.
I feel like I’m such a flip-flopper when it comes to what I want with my blog but ultimately it’s just that. My blog. So I’m allowed to change my mind. I’m allowed to decide to change the style of it whenever the heck I want. I can “label” it one thing one day and tell you I don’t like labels the next.
A lot of people use January as their month to restart and reset but I feel like that didn’t work so well for me, so I’m trying again now. I did a lot of thinking last week and decided to finally go for it and get back to what I had started here, what I really love, what inspires me and makes me feel creative.
I love telling stories and creating and that’s exactly what I plan on doing.
Here’s to the rest of 2016 and a lot of fun things to come!